it's time

Thursday, February 07, 2008
it’s time
Current mood: pensive
I'm still in New Zealand and it's been a year and a half here... Now that i'm getting settled in a new city (again), I'm leaving (again).

My time is winding down and I can hear the clock ticking in the background. The ticking follows the tocking and the tocking follows me as I wind my way through streets in cities I've learned to call home. I see familiar faces and I can't understand why things fall into place two weeks before I leave, two weeks before I heave my two bags onto a plane and my body into a seat doing brainless activities to keep myself from what is coming. It fell into place a long time ago, and is really still happening the way it should be, I've just learned to appreciate it now that I won't have it, this life in New Zealand. People act differently when they're leaving somewhere. Throw caution to the wind while treading carefully.

I thought a year and half would be long enough to figure out what to do with my life, but I've been too busy living to waste time planning and right now I know (roughly) what the next three months will bring and that's more than I've known in a long time.

It was the superbowl last weekend and I didn't even know it was on (that being said, I don't normally when I'm home either...) but I am very out of touch and sometimes it's nice that way. Sometimes though I wish I could reach out and give my siblings a hug or squeeze my niece and nephews cheeks, so I'm looking forward to that.
And if I get home and someone asks me how my "trip" went, I will secretly be raging. This is not a trip. This is living. With jobs, and expenses, and bad (good?) decisions and all that comes with all of that (and some pretty great times too!).
My attempt at something worth reading. haha

I'm going to California. I will be working for Catalina Environmental Leadership Program on Catalina Island. I get back to LA, then Texas, on Feb 17th, then turn right around (still jet-lagged and "return" culture shocked I presume) back to LA to start what will be the next three months of my life (and more?). I can't wait. Ideally I'd spend a bit more time at home after being gone a year and a half but I won't be ready to leave NZ yet, and I already had the flight before I got the job, so there that is. I will spend my days with little kids learning with them and teaching them about the environment through kayaking, gardening, hiking, snorkeling, ropes-coursing, rock climbing, star gazing, composting, living simply, and appreciating the great world we live in. Sounds good doesn't it?
I think so.
I will be missing my (already bought, no refund) flight to Colorado. I still can't wait to see my friends there, and where ever in the world they (you?) may be.
We shall be in touch, friends. I've missed you.